Birthday wish

for my birthday,

i want to outrun the ravages

and keep running;

to get to california; then, swim.

i want to remember why i am standing here in front of the refrigerator.

i want to hug my parents again, in a real place, outside my dreams.

i want too much to bear while calling for more weight.

most of all, i still want a life of more itch

than scratch.