Deliberate

To Gemma

i am not goo goo gah gah

though i might be peekaboo, depending on the face behind the hands.

mostly i am working, figuring this astonishment out.

thanks for the distraction,

but being is complicated, and already

i feel deeply, and a certain way.

if you’re after reflexive, you’ve got the wrong girl;

dangle that toy somewhere else.

sure, i might toss something out like a party trick

but when i look into your eyes and smile, it’s serious.

i am new, lovies,

but the opposite of careless

when i choose you.